Tuesday, July 23, 2013

A scare in the morning

Wed 17 July 2013

So I was in Luton airport preparing to board a plane to Edinburgh for an overnight business trip.

J calls to say that Little S was looking rough and lethargic and droopy and not waking up properly – what should we do?

We gave it ten minutes to see if Little S looked any better, by which time I was at the flight gate!

With no change in Little S's condition, I turned around and J took Little S to Barnet Hospital (via the kids’ schools) – she sounded pretty similar to how she was just before December’s nightmare of two weeks in GOSH and the terrible news that went with it.

Figuring out how to get back through security was fun but I managed (along with about 15 people who had actually missed their flights!) and made it back home, whilst J was waiting to be seen in Barnet.

And it turned out that Little S had given us a bit of a scare but that she was actually fine – probably just a bit exhausted from the heat (isn’t it really hot?!). Must admit that we were pretty worried that evening as we thought it might happen again, and possibly worse this time, but we gave Little S a more powerful fan and she slept in just a nappy – that seemed to do the trick and she was in good form the next day!

Bizarrely, the same thing then happened to our car – suffering big time in the heat, took it to the garage, they checked it over and said it was fine and it’s been OK since!

Take care of your little ones in the heat – the moral of my story today!

Every silver lining has a cloud

Wed 10 June

No change – Little S continues to amaze and be amazed, to look pretty good on the outside and, day by wonderful day, to carry on turning into a gorgeous toddler.

But every so often there’s a thought at the back of my mind:
 – What happens next?
 - What if ...?
 - How would I cope?
 - Don’t let it happen.

It’s like a clear blue sky with a worrying black storm cloud hovering on the horizon, stubbornly refusing to go away or even to shrink a little bit.

And it’s not even there unless you look in a particular direction.

You almost need to remember to forget about it in order not to look.

And that's not easy to do, so, every so often, it ends up trickling back into your mind and the worries begin again.

And maybe that’s no bad thing – to worry occasionally - as long as that cloud stays on the horizon and doesn't get any closer.
 
Na’aseh Nes L’Shoshanim

Monday, July 22, 2013

It’s been a while but we’re back again

Mon 17 June 2013

A visit with Little S to GOSH – we hadn’t been for 7 weeks and this was our first visit since last October to the ‘standard’ clinic rather than the day patients ward.

Well, as part of all the building improvements going on in the hospital since we were last there, the clinic had moved to where the old day ward was and so there was plenty of space and toys and tellies (for the obligatory beebies!) – a much better experience all round.

When we arrived, Little S came out with ‘love hopital’, so that felt like a good omen and, in the weeks before, she’d been started saying ‘Dr D pleased’ when she takes her meds!

She had all her tests: height (85 cm), weight (11.6 kg), blood pressure (68 / 40), sats (72%), blood test and echo and was great throughout.
Her weight puts her just below the 50th percentile for her age, which is better than we thought she might be – room for improvement but at least she seems to be getting a fair amount of the calories that she needs.
Her sats were taken by Dr D after Little S had toddled across the ward from his office to the sats machine – normally we’d expect them to be a bit low after some ‘exercise’ but 72% is the highest I’ve seen her for a while (Dr D got 95% and I then bested him with 96%!)

For the blood test we were initially told to go to the next door hospital which would have been a right pain and probably taken hours. Then Dr D suggested that we pop down to Walrus (the day ward), phoning to check that they weren’t too busy. So we wandered down and found two of the nurses J and R waiting for us with open arms and massive smiles, well waiting for Little S really: they were so excited to see her again!

Little S got the red carpet treatment with nurses fussing over her and we were so pleased that we hadn’t gone elsewhere for the blood test!

We had a good chat with Dr D – he’s very pleased with how Little S is doing in terms of her outward demeanour, behaviour and mobility.
He talked about her being able to fly at some point (probably next year now - in a plane - she doesn't actually have super powers) which he seemed to rule out before – apparently there’s a room in GOSH where they can test a child’s reaction to aircraft cabin pressures for an hour or two.
He also suggested that we probably didn’t really need to take oxygen machines and large oxygen tanks with us on holiday over the summer.

So lots of good stuff.

But Little S’s heart seems to be just as weak as it was back in January – all of her improvements are symptomatic and, presumably, down to her medication, her miraculous tenacity and the positive, normal atmosphere that we encourage around her.

Dr D used her echo scan pictures to show us the part of her heart wall that is affected by heart failure – whilst it should be moving almost a third of the way across the heart chamber and back as part of each heartbeat, Little S’s was still not really moving much at all.

So the good news is the Little S looks like she’s doing really well and is in really good spirits and on course to actually start nursery in September! Who would have ever thought that that was possible – she’s already been along for a couple of hours to check out the toys and seemed to have had a good fun time. The teachers seemed pretty clued in to her needs so we’ll give it a go.

The bad news is that there is no change inside. Dr D also felt that there was no point doing a speculative procedure, like an angiogram, to look in more detail at her coronary arteries (they might be the cause of all her troubles – and world expert, Dr H at Stanford seemed to think that an investigation might yield some useful information) as she’s doing fine right now and a procedure could put all of that at risk.
 
So it’s just try and keep up the good work until our next appointment in August.