Every silver lining has a cloud

Wed 10 June

No change – Little S continues to amaze and be amazed, to look pretty good on the outside and, day by wonderful day, to carry on turning into a gorgeous toddler.

But every so often there’s a thought at the back of my mind:
 – What happens next?
 - What if ...?
 - How would I cope?
 - Don’t let it happen.

It’s like a clear blue sky with a worrying black storm cloud hovering on the horizon, stubbornly refusing to go away or even to shrink a little bit.

And it’s not even there unless you look in a particular direction.

You almost need to remember to forget about it in order not to look.

And that's not easy to do, so, every so often, it ends up trickling back into your mind and the worries begin again.

And maybe that’s no bad thing – to worry occasionally - as long as that cloud stays on the horizon and doesn't get any closer.

 

Na’aseh Nes L’Shoshanim